天高云淡

如水失恋了，她最终也没有把那封信交给男孩，因为一切都结束了。她自尊心太强了，当感觉到空气中的味道不对了，选择了放弃。她告诉男孩，我们还是做朋友好。于是一切归于平淡。

他们的爱情，像水中泛起的涟漪，一圈圈淡去，很美也很平静。从开始到结束，一个月。

我问如水，你怎么评价这段爱情，她说：“还没开始就已经结束，未免有些可惜。”我又问她，“你爱他么？” 她犹豫了一下说，这太难说了，不过他说是，因为我会生他的气。“你对他说过你爱他么？”她笑了，说我小丫头问题还满多的。“到底有没有嘛？”“还没有，” 她说，“如果给我时间，我想我会爱他越来越多的。”

如水的答案让我困惑，我听晕晕的。为什么世人都会为爱情而烦恼。为什么不去工作、去学习、去跳舞。爱情就会在每一天的空气里生根、发芽，长大。

如水，我的舞跳得不错哦，我来教你，我们去跳舞吧。

他们没有吵架，也没有纷争，也就没有解决他们之间的问题。男孩选择放弃。在知道男孩的决定前，她给男孩写了一封信。
My sweetest Baby,

I never expected my first love letter to you like this. But I can’t help but write it down and send it to you.

I should apologize. The moment I walked out of the classroom like a hard-cored stone, leaving you turning back from the seat, staring at me like a stranger, I felt heart-broken. I will never forget that moment my whole life. I ate little that evening. You know I never liked a bike on my own and I never want to separate “yours” from “mine” and “ours”. I never want to fix our date on a certain date, and limited hour. Every moment with you is so dear and happy to me.

I meant to hurt you unconsciously and make my presence felt. Then I realized when you felt hurt, I felt heart-broken. I used to think that you are a heartless optimistic boy, who knows nothing about romance, let alone obstacles in love and life. Although I still believe so, I realized you are not heartless, and not a child any more. You got colorful emotion. You will feel blue and gray, too. The day you looked at me with troubled eyes and frowning, my feeling was complex. I would not eat back my words, but I want to cry. I am just a girl who is familiar to you, but needs your love and caring more than before. Once in love, I just want to be like any common girls, cradling in your arms, shopping with you hand in hand, imagining a carefully designed romantic date in the city or at home. Consider that we have never had such a romantic date, I decided to do something. But if the by-product is your unhappiness, I would rather I did nothing.

Maybe that kind of love is too strong and heavy for our young and innocent heart. Ideal love should promote mutual improvement rather than drown into a deep ocean of love. My sensitivity walked hopelessly into the ocean, and came across your sense, thus comes the troubled moment.

These are my thoughts in the night. I can’t hurt anybody due to my consciousness, let alone your innocent soul. Hope you will recover from the wound of deep love soon.

Lv. Me

如水不肯告诉我他们的甜蜜瞬间，只是告诉我他们有一天吵架了。

如水也是个忙人，但相对于她刚刚在一起的男友是小屋见大屋了。少女心中对于浪漫的定义在作怪，她渴望着能和男友有浪漫的约会，一次次精心策划却因为男友忘了提前告诉她有事儿推迟之后，她再也忍不住了。于是，小小的离家出走了一次。小别再见面或许会很浪漫吧。

她出去玩了两天，然后回来了。周末，这次可是她的时间了。一起吃午饭的时候，如水就开始想着下午休息晚上出去玩。男孩说，晚上约了朋友吃饭，不过他可以陪如水先去吃饭……

如水是个ABC，所以故事只好半中半洋了。她伤心的跟我说了how she fell in love.

It is just like any cliche, I just fall in love unconsciously. Not yet ready to know how to love someone. It’s an art, now I know that.

I thought about that for a long time, and then decided that he deserves my love. I liked him, he is a good guy, and I will love him more day after day. I’m right, I did love him more and more day after day. But I never knew that this sincere love would end so quickly and take my heart away from me.

So how did he pursue you? I asked.
She paused a moment, and said that was his privace, but I can tell you how I tll him I love him. I was too shy to tell him that directly, and looked into every means that was romantic and memorable. Then I found some bookmarks. I bought two sets of bookmarks in my college, and it would become my message to him.

I found out four bookmarks, each containing our constellations. On my ones, I wrote “I persist my own ways”“be happy angry sad and cheerful”. While on his ones, I wrote “fond of chatting and laughing”， she wanted the initial words to be “I am fond of you”. But I couldn’t find a suitable Chinese equivalent idiom，so I wrote “You are a fool”。

The next day, I pretended to come across him, and told him I got four constellations card, and would share them with him. He read the front part carefully to find out if we suit each other from the constellation. And I showed him the tails of the bookmarks quickly, so he would be quick enought to fing the complet meaning . I left two bookmarks to him, which wrote “be happy angry sad and cheerful”“fond of chatting and laughing”. That was my answer to him. Quickly I ran away.

I thought someday if we are together we could share the secret of the bookmarks. He might be a little bit angry that I said that he was silly.

But now the day will never come.

〈谨以此文献给我的朋友如水，愿你快快忘记忧伤，开始新的生活〉

如水是典型的南方女子，生得柔柔弱弱，廋得让人担心。但她骨子里却是个刚强的。颇有些侠骨衷肠。朋友说，第一次见她感觉冷冰冰的，像块石头。

石头让她想起王朔的小说《？》。女人和老公分手后，坚强的挺住悲伤。老公再次爱上她，居然是因为有一次坐车时看到窗外骑自行车的她。她在风中赶路，头发被风吹得乱乱的，表情是一副下定决心找人拼命的样子。男人想起第一次见到她是不知为什么，觉得她的脸长得像一块石头。

如水长的不像石头，她长的像水，虽然不美，却很平静。她也不会头发乱乱的跑出去，对她来说，太不可思议了。她总是光鲜照人，即使不开心的时候。但不知为什么这一刻她想到了这个女人。刚强顽固的活在失去了爱的世界里。

也许不是因为那次相遇，也许不是石头般长像的回忆，也许不是女人怀孕了，她将永远带着这个面具老去枯萎。如水像起了她，想起了自己和她一样的，顽固的刚强的面具。

她的故事很平静，很短。

它是只独行特立的猫，小小的爪子上长着厚厚的肉垫，走路轻盈袅娜，人们往往无法察觉它的存在。
它轻盈的穿梭在人和猫的世界里，无牵无挂，无忧无虑，简单并快乐着。但这种快乐只能从它智慧的大眼睛一眨变成一条线时，才能透过那条线看到，一闪而过。
他相信风的话。风告诉它，你看那朵白云爱上你了。云转来转去，知道为什么么？为了给你遮阳。云多美，和你一样轻盈，自由自在。它想也许风是对的。为什么自己没有发现云的存在呢。于是每天看着云，对它说话。云在空中飘，它在地上走，这是对么幸福的事情呀。
但是它是猫，一只白天活动的猫，不再具有它猫的魅力，不再是猫了。云朵认不出它，也不再对它微笑，自顾自的游荡。风儿也无言。
猫伤心极了。云和猫的爱情，也许只是风的美意，云的初衷。